College and online journals

Well, quite honestly, I never thought anyone I knew in college would ever read any of my blogs or xangas or anything. Myspace I wrote and made avaliable on my facebook and all.... other than that I just wanted to keep these things to my high school sorta things. I just kinda splurt stuff out on them anyway, and when Steve found my xanga and read some posts about when I was just starting to date him and I kept calling him a skater boy and I said some mean stuff about Steff's roommate I realized "AAhh I sounded so shallow!! I hope Steve doesn't think I'm really that way......." So then that's why I stopped posting on there and kinda everywhere for a while... So I think I'll start up on here again but I'm gonna not just type my messed up train of thought cuz then I end up sounding horrible.

Also I think I was realizing something today, that one of the few ways my dad and I can connect is in making fun of other people... and that's really not cool at all... I mean we were at a Panera the other day and this kid walked in with a mullet and on one side it was shaved in a few lines like a cougar claw got him there or something but the other side didn't have that at all.... and it was horrible and I really don't know why that kid just didn't get it fixed but I couldn't stop laughing at him with my dad... *sigh* I mean I know it wasn't nice.... ugh but idk... So eh... Oh and also my parents made it now so that if they make fun of each other and I catch them doing that... I get $5 from whoever made fun of the other. I've caught my dad making fun of my mom but he hasn't owned up and given me any money *sigh*

In other news, my dad offered to get me a laptop but I really want a Mac and those are expensive... Idk maybe people... I don't think anyone reads this right now but... maybe people with those kinds of computers could tell me what's best or something. Macs all seem to be kinda expensive and I wanna keep my desktop too cuz it is my TV so eh idk... Alright well I guess I'll stop this post now. Maybe I'll end up telling people I'm gonna use this blog now so people will know to read it... but not yet lol.